“All in the golden afternoon
Full leisurely we glide;
For both our oars, with little skill,
By little arms are plied,
While little hands make vain pretense
Our wanderings to guide.”
-Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland
As this is our fifth issue, we’ve had time to reflect on the nature of our readership. We realize that the majority of you are young women, in your 20s, much like us. We’re part of a community trying to figure ourselves out; being sold the same repeated image of beauty, the same preeminence of youth, expected to share the same fears of a society chewing up our artistry and spitting us out the worse for wear.
Growing up is scary, and we’re supposed to do everything we can to avoid aging. We’re supposed to stay the same.
We started this zine with the intention of asking ourselves, and the community, the tough questions: What if growing up can be beautiful? How can we preserve our creativity in a world that constantly pushes us towards a ‘normal’? What can we learn from the women before us?
For these images, we drew inspiration from Carroll’s Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland. It is a tale in which the creative fantasies of youth are explored, as a child fights with the power of disillusionment that comes with age.
We drew inspiration from Gail and Kiah, two women who are powerful and inventive and paved the road for women like us, who are just starting to decide how to carve a path.
They are presented covered in light from micro-photography of mold, something else we gasp and grimace at, taught to fear and avoid. As we hope you can see, the organic forms become all light, all color, and all encompassing environment when thoroughly considered. When cooperated with, our fears blur into a new and brighter landscape.
We asked these women the same question our dear Alice once asked, knowing, of course, that it depends very much on where one would like to go: “Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?”
Photographer: Kate Dannenmaier
HMUA: Mariah Becerra
Models: Gail Chovan, Kiah Brooks
Gail Chovan wears clothing of her own design.